(Lian Li POV)
I laid down on the beach mat with my arms at my side, listening to the sounds of crashing waves while feeling especially listless.
The rest of my sisters were off training despite Master telling us to relax for the day, it seems like they couldn't wait to ascend to Godhood as well.
Even Guiying had elected to return back to the capital for a day to deal with her duties before returning later.
As for me… I unfortunately do not know how else to proceed after I have obtained my Divinity. As far as I knew, all I needed to do was to wait for my mortal body to be completely infused with my Divine essence which would complete my transformation process into a Goddess.
I did not even get the chance to talk to Master about my current condition because of everything that happened last night and by the time I remembered, Master had already left with the other girl.
Which also meant I had absolutely nothing to do except to wait for Master to return.
I wasn't even dressed up in a swimsuit either since Master wasn't here for me to seduce Him with it, so I was just laying there in my usual training clothes on the beach.
The only one accompanying me was Lilith who, unlike me, was enjoying her time on the beach right now.
She was completely naked except for a pair of sunglasses on her face while she laid down to sunbathe beside me. I wasn't even sure if there was a point since I'm quite certain she can't get a tan and she could easily make her skin darker with a thought if that was her goal.
"So how's divinity treating you?" Lilith asked suddenly, not moving from her spot.
"I don't know," I admitted.
"You don't know? Isn't that what you wanted?"
I considered hiding my problem from her but then I thought about it again. Wouldn't she be able to help me since she's also someone not too dissimilar to Gods?
Oh! Is that why Master told Lilith to stay here? So that I could learn from her too?
Ahhhhh! My apologies for not seeing something so obvious sooner, Master! As usual, you're always thinking about us!
Ehehehe~ You even went so far for me! Master must have chosen not to say it out loud so that it wouldn't make the others jealous! I can't believe I almost missed this!
Mmhmm! Let me see… I guess I should just start with the problem I wanted to ask Master about.
I sat up to face her, "I've been feeling rather empty for some reason ever since I've ascended. It feels like something is missing from me, like a hole in my person that was not there before."
Lilith pushed her sunglasses down to look at me, "Empty? Ah… You're a newly ascended Goddess after all. You haven't even laid full claim to your domain yet, of course you would feel empty."
I knew it! Master definitely expected this to happen! Ehehe~ I love you Master!
"What does that mean?" I asked quickly, not wanting to disappoint Master's expectations.
She raised an eyebrow, "Did you think that a mortal could ascend to godhood so easily with no consequences? Daddy definitely helped you bear the brunt of it but you were still a mortal you know? If ascending to godhood was so easy, the entire Universe would be overcrowded with them already."
"I'm not sure I understand? Master never really explained the process to me so I don't know…"
"And I'm guessing you never went to find out more about this yourself either?"
"Umm… No… I wasn't sure where I could find out about it…"
Lilith shook her head at me, "Not even Daddy?"
"Ah… No… I did not ask Master more about it…"
"Were you waiting for Daddy to give you everything on a silver platter? I believe all of you asked to climb to godhood on your own and even received help from Daddy, but none of you even bothered to find out about what that even entails?"
I felt properly chastised since what she said was true.
All of us had only seen attaining Godhood as a means to an end, since the primary goal was to stay by Master's side until the end of time. But that meant none of us had tried to find out if anything else came with the attainment of Godhood.
Lilith sighed, "Ha… I guess it's too late to berate you for that. I do have to admit that your ascension was still nothing short of impressive due to how you ascended, but that's about it. I suppose Daddy must have thought you would be in this slump which was why he left me behind as well."
"That's what I thought as well…" I admitted.
"Fine… Listen well. To obtain Godhood you need to also lose your mortality, or more specifically, what makes you mortal."
I tilted my head at her, "What does that mean?"
"Consider this… If the you from before you met Daddy were to obtain godhood, what do you think you would do?"
"Before I met Master? I would… I… Hmm? I… I don't know…" I stuttered, finding it weird that I could not come up with an answer.
Lilith nodded as though she had expected me to be unable to answer this, "I heard you also had a book where you filled it with names of people you want to take revenge on, am I right? Ummm… Book of tortures or something?"
I nodded, materialising said book from my storage ring.
She nodded at it, "Open it and tell me what you think about the people listed in it."
I flipped open the book and looked through what was written there.
Umm… Resort staff… For looking down on Master… Fake sword goddess and sword god… For their idiocy… Some brotherhood and sisterhood Sect and even a bear? All for looking down on Master?
"I… I don't know what to feel about them?" I muttered, a little confused. Should I be angry? I think I should be angry, but I honestly don't feel anything from seeing their names.
"That's because those feelings and desires are also part of your mortal self, which you would have to sacrifice to obtain your godhood. Why else do you think the truest of divines, also known as my Daddy, was perfectly impartial in the past?"
"But… Don't the Gods have emotions too?" I pointed out.
"Oh, you misunderstand. There is only one truly divine being in existence and that is Daddy as Origin, even the other gods are not considered true divines and possess bits of mortality, even myself. That's why it is possible for us to still cease to exist, but not Daddy."
"Then… Why am I like this? Have I lost all my mortality?"
Lilith scoffed, "Please, that's like saying you are on Daddy's level now. No, you just sacrificed most of it in your ascension. Besides, you still love Daddy, yes?"
I nodded quickly, my feeling of adoration for Master will never be taken away from me again.
Lilith hummed at my nod, "That's because it's the only thing you held on to while you were ascending, which led to you giving up everything else."
"Then… What do I need to do to get myself back?"
She finally sat up to face me properly, "Hmm… Why do you even want to do that? Isn't the current you better? You only need to love Daddy right?"
That… Makes sense… I only need to love Master after all, everyone else does not matter. Everyone else is just a hindrance…
No.
Then I would be no better than that stupid stalker. This must be why she is like the way she is.
"I do not wish to become like Iris," I told her.
She grinned, "Good. If you had agreed with me, I would have slapped you. Anyway, don't worry, I know how to fix you, you're not the first god I've seen to have ascended."
"I thought you said a mortal becoming a god was not easy?"
"It is not, but you are not the first to have done so. Most of the other gods in your place either choose to accept their new selves or went to regain their lost mortality back. Since you're the latter, the easiest path for you would be to let you relive your life again."
I frowned, "Again? Then do I need to use Brendan's potion to--"
Lilith held up her hand to stop me before I could finish my words, "I said to relive them as in go back in time and live it, not just watching it as a memory."
"And how do I do that?"
"Like this, have a nice second life~"
She slammed her palm onto my head and the next thing I saw was darkness.
Couldn't she have given me a better explanation first?
