(Tsuki POV)
I kind of remembered that Aniue wasn't his usual self when the pain came first.
It was nothing like I had experienced before and the pain was so much that I could not do anything but drop down on the ground and curl up into a ball.
The feeling was akin to thousands of needles pricking my skin every second, filling my head up with nothing but the noise of pain.
I don't know how much time had passed, it could have been days, weeks, months, years or even just a few seconds, but with this much pain drowning out my own thoughts, I could not think about anything at all.
What am I supposed to do? What do I need to do to make this pain go away?! Aniue!! Aniueeeee!!
No, stop! This is something I need to deal with! I can't keep relying on Aniue for things like this! I'll definitely conquer this if it means I can be the better little sister!!
Arrrghhh!! This pain is so annoying!! Just stop!! Go away! Stop making me feel this pain!! Do something that would stop this!!
I want to…
…
Eh? The pain is… Going away?
Was it just because I wished for the pain to disappear?
Oh, now that I'm not constantly in pain anymore, I can think now.
Aniue did say that this is the most malleable thing in existence so I should be able to reshape it according to my will, which has been proven by the fact that I managed to stop the pain simply by thinking about it.
That means I should be able to make other things with this just by thinking about it, including ascending to Godhood as well.
The only problem is that it most likely shouldn't be that simple.
Aniue did not tell me to use it to turn myself into a Goddess, he told me to conquer it and gain mastery over this energy within me instead.
I'm sure that if I were to do the former, I would only turn out to be a second rate Goddess unlike the others who have already ascended.
Yes… My goal is not just to become a Goddess, but also to be strong enough to slap that little stalker bitch for making so much trouble for us! An ordinary ascension will not do!
She was also the one to force me to have the altercation with Aniue in the first place so that gives me double the reason to get back at her!
That's why, I need to make this energy that she put into me mine just so I can use it to slap her with.
I concentrated on the energy around me, trying to find out what had changed after my thought of not being in pain anymore.
It took me a moment to realise that while the energy was still there, it was no longer as chaotic as before. Before this, it was akin to a hurricane blowing through everything in its path. Now, it was more like a calm lake with nary a ripple on its surface.
I tried extending my senses to it and found that I could control it in certain ways, including moving and shaping it if I wanted to.
Aniue said something about mixing my own energy in it, didn't he? So I suppose I can start from there?
I gathered my own energy and sent a tendril of it out into the 'sea' around me, watching as it mixed into it before integrating itself into its midst.
It took me a moment to realise that I basically just sent a part of my energy into that Origin pool without getting anything back.
Oops, looks like I did things the opposite way of what I was supposed to do and adapted my energy to it instead of the other way around.
This time, I tried to pull the Origin energy to me instead, willing it to adapt itself to me and integrating it with my own energy instead.
The moment that bit of Origin touched my core, my sense exploded in a multitude of colours. It felt like I was looking down at the Universe from an outsider's perspective and I could feel everything that was going on within it.
Is this what the Universe looked like right now?
There was so much information being sent to my brain that I could not even begin to process what was going on.
Was this something that Aniue felt all the time as Origin? As expected of Aniue to be able to handle even something like this!
But… That means I'm also not good enough to adapt to this since I can't exactly absorb the entire Universe into myself…
I quickly pulled back and found myself back in my own consciousness again, that small tendril of Origin energy hovering just outside of my core.
I need to think… If this small amount of energy was enough to incapacitate me… Then I wouldn't be able to take in the rest of it myself.
That's it! I just need to change myself to be able to take them in as well! Shed my mortal form or whatever it was called, that's the problem Lian Li and the others were facing right? If I'm able to do that now… Then it means I'll be ahead of them!
Wahahaha! Then Aniue will surely think I'm the best little sister there is!
I immediately started the process again, this time also adding the condition of transforming my own mortal shell into a divine one to contain the power within me.
I was once again brought to the outside where I was looking at the Universe from above but it was not as incomprehensible as it was before. In fact… I think I can even spot my sisters fighting against those two monsters right now.
I clenched up and willed every single iota of energy into my own body, only to have everything come crashing down on me without warning and I found myself being pushed down by an immense pressure.
Ugh… It looks like I managed to absorb all of the energy but now I need to concentrate on integrating it to myself.
The Origin energy swirled within me and I could see the Universe look like it was reversing back in time, as though I was brought back to its birth.
Was this how the other Gods were made? Where they have to experience the Universe from start to the present?
IF that's the case… Let me just have a little detour to a specific time first…
"Oh my, it's little Tsuki!"
I blinked, finding myself in the small room that I most definitely recognised as the house Aniue and I were abandoned in.
In front of me was a middle aged man and woman who were looking at me with big smiles on their faces.
Ah, there they are, the two 'parents' that had abandoned both Aniue and I.
Yes, there's something I always wanted to do to them ever since I was aware of this… Something I have to do in order to move forward.
I went up to the two of them who had their arms spread out in a welcoming gesture.
Right as I got within arms reach, I pulled back my fist and punched the man in the face, sending him crashing through the wall of the building.
Before the woman could react, my other fist had buried itself under her chin and blasted her up and through the ceiling.
Wahahaha! Take that you poor excuse of human beings! I've always wanted to do that!
Now it's time for me to ascend!!
