[ Seek, and ye shall find ]
The resounding thought continued, pulsating with life as if a calm heartbeat pulsated with a peaceful rhythm.
'I seek power to rise above the limitations that have held me back. If my enemies are gods, I demand divine powers to conquer them all.
If fate blocks my path toward my goals, I require endless ways to reach them. I crave the power to dream infinitely, to set boundless goals and explore infinite possibilities.'
[ Seek, and ye shall find ]
The thought reverberated once more, its presence akin to a hunger that kept growing with time.
'I want ways that can help me keep coming back to this state of all-knowingness. So that I can create my own path from the experiences I gain for myself. I want to feel immersed in this state again and again even if I have to take many births.
I want to find ways that can help me save someone I want to save. I want to find ways that can help me turn my problems into solutions.
It's fine if I have to pay the price for nurturing my grand ambitions. But I want to find ways that can help me fulfill them at the cost I deem to be right.
I am willing to look for solutions to my problems across the boundless cosmos. I am willing to visit myriad worlds to fulfill my goals. So I need endless ways to travel to these worlds, towards the answers I'm looking for.'
As he had managed to retain his sense of self despite the kind of effect the ethereal state had on him, Eren was able to clearly state what he wanted from whoever or whatever was providing him with answers.
Eren realized that being immersed in this consciousness was the ultimate blessing someone like him could have at the cost of losing his sense of being. His greedy nature prevailed and allowed him to make the most of the opportunity provided to him.
Thus, he asked for ways with which he could enter this state of all-knowingness again. Only by experiencing this state repeatedly could he forge his path ahead without losing everything he held dear to himself including his identity.
[ Seek, and ye shall find ]
The thoughts reverberated in Eren's mind once again, like an echo of a voice that was spoken a long ago but kept repeating itself.
Seek and ye shall find– even though the message was the same, Eren could discern the deeper meaning behind each iteration for some reason. It was as if these words were the pieces of the puzzle that gave different answers depending upon who solved them and when.
He could tell that this time, this all-knowing consciousness wanted him to choose a divinity for himself, a kind of divinity related to the God Spark he had acquired.
Eren contemplated for what felt like a short time and an eternity to him before replying.
'Like a ceaseless river that finds its way to flow forward irrespective of the obstacles placed in its path, I want my divinity to be unstoppable. Just like the nature of water that absorbs everything it can absorb, I want my divinity to be all-inclusive and limitless.
Just like the adaptability of water that takes any shape or form depending on its situation, I want my divinity to cast its shadow on every aspect of the divine. Just like a stream of water drops that eventually breaks the might of a rock just by being persistent, I want my divinity to destroy everything that dares to hinder its path.
My divinity shall be formless like a calm sea and yet have the ability to take the grandest form like a raging tide that can't be stopped, no matter how many mountains are in my path.'
Eren concluded his train of thought, fully aware that the one posing the question was listening. His claims might sound grand to the ones who knew him in Anfang. But to the current him who was immersed in this peculiar state, they were nothing but what he truly felt he should have.
Eren didn't feel like he was asking for something big. Neither did he feel like he should be asking for something more. What he had asked was enough. What he receives would also be enough. Rather, he would make sure that it manages to satisfy him somehow.
In the next instant, Eren felt an indescribable sensation permeating his being, as if his very existence was being inscribed with ancient runes.
'I… I feel hauntingly peaceful. As if all my worries and problems are dissolving. I can feel that if my problems dissolve now, I will also get dissolved along with them.'
Eren felt as though his sense of being would be erased due to the inscription of ancient runes on his soul. It dawned on him that the type of divinity he had chosen was too vast and grand for his mortal soul and his limited experiences.
'Hmm. Looks like I bit more than what I could chew.'
While his soul was immersed in the pool of all-knowingness, Eren realized that certain divinities couldn't be claimed merely because one desired them. He felt as though he had unknowingly lifted something, thinking it was a boulder, only for it to transform into a mountain.
'It doesn't matter. Doubting myself will be more fatal for me at this point. So I'll just grow my level of existence to match my goals.'
Eren sensed that his soul might not be able to sustain the inscriptions of the ancient runes due to the grandness of his divinity. Yet, he was determined not to retract his words.
In this ethereal state, Eren felt no fear. Or rather, he did not allow his fears or doubts to tarnish his soul or thoughts. His past experiences had helped forge an iron will, enabling him to face the fears of being dissolved into nothingness in pursuit of his grand divinity.
'Time, fate, and circumstances can conspire against me all they want. I'll be getting what I want, come what may.'
