You Truly Can Take My Life (1)
“Then, asking wangye to please properly hold tight, letting me one day be completely dead set on you.” As Jing Wan said this, she reached out and unconsciously caressed the back of Li Hong Yuan’s head.
After saying these words, she actually was a bit in a daze and lost in thought. She didn’t know why she said these words. In this world where men were regarded as superior to women, married girls ought to view one’s husband as the sky. Being dead set towards one’s husband was all how it should be, and producing a second heart was something the heavens cannot tolerate. If found out, probably getting criticized by thousands of people was nothing too much.
To think that she actually said such words, and the target was even a prince, a qinwang that was standing at the peak of power, controlling the power of life and death. Women, in his eyes, perhaps really were less than even a set of clothes.
Jing Wan believed, although she wasn’t living carefully and cautiously, as if walking on thin ice, the things she should pay attention to she will still pay attention to. And her speech and conduct, even if overstepping the bounds of what’s proper, it was still in a controllable scope. Moreover, the target was always someone worth trusting, guaranteed to never leak out.
Could it be that this represented her trust towards him?
Trust, how simple of a word, but regardless whether it was giving to someone, or receiving from others, sometimes, it was very easy, but sometimes, it was very difficult. When it was easy, perhaps it was just in an instant, but when difficult, perhaps it can’t be realized in an entire lifetime. Jing Wan reached out and covered her own eyes. As expected, she was also one that can’t escape the secular world, and would also be hit by the bullet coated in the so-called ‘indulgence, pampering, and tenderness’. Although having complete trust towards him was impossible right now, there was still twenty to thirty percent.
Jing Wan right now faintly understood that kind of madness and determination brought about after obtaining, and then getting mercilessly abandoned and betrayed. If my lord is heartless, then I shall cease, how simple was it to say, but if it really was that easy to achieve, then probably can only mean that one wasn’t wholeheartedly devoted. Just like her right now, thinking that if in the future, this man were to promise her the days she wanted, but then ruthlessly destroy it, she won’t be that magnanimous as to let go, instead thinking if there’s a way to kill him.
See, right now, towards him, she was just that bit moved, no longer blindly restraining herself to not be moved by him, yet she already was able to birth this kind of thinking, then what about those that have deeply fallen within? Or was it that, deep down in her bones, she was actually extremely crazy?
He naturally needed to hold firmly, to be in his hands at last, how could he give others the chance? While knowing her temperament, and knowing the ideal life she wanted, these all can let her lean towards another man. If that’s the case, then he can directly slit his own throat and commit suicide.
Li Hong Yuan lifted his head, grasping her hand that was covering her eyes, moving it away. That flicker of ruthlessness made him slightly startled. Lowering his head, he lightly landed a kiss on her lips that still carried blood. “What are you thinking about?”
Jing Wan was probably also aware that her expression right now wasn’t right, but she didn’t hurriedly try to restrain it either. And the words she said just now, she also didn’t think of explaining or justifying. Facing Li Hong Yuan, she tilted her head, suddenly smiling like a flower, “Killing someone.”
“Oh?” Li Hong Yuan wasn’t even surprised, let alone frightened, even engrossingly asking, “Who?”
“You.” Jing Wan’s lips slightly parted, yet her words were clear.
Li Hong Yuan slightly furrowed his brows, his expression somewhat vexed, “Wan Wan, how about we negotiate?”
“En?” This man thinks she’s joking, right? Heheh………
(T/N: Plot twist, Jing Wan is actually the yandere of this novel, you all were all deceived lol, but jokes on her cuz LHY actually into that shit.)
“When you really want to take my life, just tell me, alright?” He probably knew under what circumstances would she want to take his life. For her to consider this problem now, it can be seen, it really was a good sign.
TN: All
“If said, will one still be able to kill? This kind of thing, isn’t it doing when least expected and attacking when unprepared?”
“I’m your husband, and further someone of the imperial clan. Killing one’s husband is a capital offense, and assassinating someone of the imperial clan will further implicate the entire Luo clan. That’s why, you doing it on your own isn’t profitable. Tell me, I’ll help you, guarantee that the final outcome will make you satisfied, and won’t let you be implicated at all. That’s why, regardless of what, all need to hand over to someone who’s proficient to do, and killing, this kind of thing, I’m very good at.”
Jing Wan looked to him in slight disbelief, “Does wangye really know what I’m saying, what you’re saying?”
“My ears are fine, my ability to comprehend also without a problem, and my mouth further without a problem. Wan Wan, you want my life, no problem, but there’s a condition.” Li Hong Yuan’s finger pointed at where her heart was, “This must be completely and entirely mine. Only by using your heart can you exchange for my life, understand?”
He wasn’t like he was joking at all. Jing Wan’s breathing slowed, suddenly a bit scared, turning her body, like wanting to avoid the cage-like atmosphere, her gaze wandering, not daring to look directly at him. She somewhat forcibly tugged the corner of her mouth, “For humans, if this heart is gone, won’t one also die, one life in exchange for another life, I’m still the one at a loss.”
Li Hong Yuan lightly smiled, pinching Jing Wan’s chin, letting her look directly at him, “Since Wan Wan understands inside, yet wants to pretend to be confused, I also won’t force it. Just, these words of mine today, remember for the time being. Not just in this life, even if the next life, for every day you remember, it will be effective.”
Using the heart to exchange for the life. If you fall in love with him, and he betrays you, you can just take his life!
Making a promise that wasn’t just for one lifetime.
It was very heavy, but also made one very much look forward to. Of course, Jing Wan really wasn’t afraid she wasn’t able to shoulder. Just, these words came from Jin Qinwang’s mouth, seemingly very much unreliable, but his attitude wasn’t like he was joking.
Li Hong Yuan very much wanted to strike the iron while hot, letting her understand even more things, but in the end, he was afraid pressed too tightly, she would instead shrink back. He further heartached her frowning and troubled look. In any case, things weren’t completely without progress. In reality, this development already exceeded his expectations. Her heart really wasn’t as unsusceptible to change as he’d anticipated. However, even so, he didn’t feel the journey in the future will become easier. He unhesitantly kissed her again, “In the future, not allowed to meet those two, understand?”
All of her train of thoughts instantly dispersed into nothing. However, Jing Wan this while was unable to get angry either, just feeling helpless, “Without rhyme or reason, why would I meet with them, don’t randomly eat flying vinegar[1] and go crazy.”
Flying vinegar and whatnot, he didn’t understand, but could still roughly guess the meaning. “Even if there’s a reason, still can’t meet. Don’t think I don’t know those two harbor sinister intentions towards you. If there really is something, won’t they just openly approach. Today, Chen Zheng Min didn’t wait for imperial father’s summoning, and just came over after changing his clothes. If it really was an ordinary visit, was there a need to be in such a hurry? What his intentions were, practically just short of announcing to the world. Sun Yi Lin looks like a gentleman, but isn’t a good thing either………….”
Seeing Li Hong Yuan with a pent-up look of wanting to kill them, Jing Wan felt very amused. Under the heavens, the one who didn’t have the face to say others weren’t good things the most was probably just you, Jin Qinwang. Also, this image of yours, truly subverting a bit too seriously. Seemingly also having that bit of childishness? If those that got very miserably sorted out by you were to see, would they produce the thought of ‘getting sorted out by such a person, practically don’t have the face to continue living’? Thinking to here, Jing Wan accidentally let out a ‘pffft’ laugh.
Li Hong Yuan face darkened into the bottom of a pot, and the vicious currents in his eyes were like as if they were about to solidify. He suddenly flipped over and got up, climbing down from the bed, pulling over his clothes, and started to put them on.
This seemingly was having really gotten angry. Jing Wan pondered for a moment. Was she being a bit too much? She quickly sat up, disregarding her disheveled hair and clothes, reaching out to grab him, “Wangye, what are you planning to do?”
Li Hong Yuan turned to look at her, his eyes a sheet of ice, the killing intent brewing, “Do what? Slaughter them. This prince in the beginning, as expected, shouldn’t have………” Shouldn’t have facilitated their engagement with Wan Wan. He should’ve directly requested his old man to bestow the marriage. Even if he didn’t agree, still need to agree. At worse it was just kicking him off the throne, causing his brothers to fight over the position, setting off internal and external conflict, but so what? What did the world in peril have to do with him? It would save him from having his heart and liver ache right now, hating that he can’t have them crushed into smithereens.
Although it wasn’t directed at her, Jing Wan still couldn’t help shivering, quickly getting up to stop him, “Just now, it was my fault, don’t have human life not taken seriously. Ah Yuan, Ah Yuan, don’t casually kill.”
Li Hong Yuan’s expression grew even colder, “You’re pleading for them? Even using the address that you would only use on the bed?!”
Jing Wan wanted to curse. Don’t twist her meaning like this. However, right now, if she doesn’t have him nicely pacified, Jing Wan really was afraid tomorrow morning someone will come to their family to report bad news. “I didn’t mean that, I was just feeling, if you just take their life like this without a reason, no matter how much your imperial father pampers you, he’ll definitely still reproach you. And those brothers of yours, you’ve also offended quite a few of, so at this time, they’ll definitely collectively rise in revolt. Also, it’s not easy for you to state the reason for killing them either. At least, can’t tell the truth as is, else when time comes, I’ll end up at the heart of the storm. Ah Yuan, you also won’t be able to bear, right?”
“Just killing two people, would I even let others catch something against me? This prince isn’t useless to that degree.”
Bastard, can’t you talk properly? “If you want to do something, then naturally there’s nothing you can’t accomplish. But speaking from another perspective, for better or worse, they’re still considered talented youths. Leaving them to work for Qi Yuan like cows and horses is also not bad.”
“Qi Yuan has several hundred thousand people, a handful of talented youths, having the two of them isn’t much, and missing the two of them isn’t lacking either.”
This was determined to kill them? To want to beat and kill in a moment of disagreement, was that still considered a normal person? This was adequately having an illness, and even the serious kind. Encountering such a ware, so tiring! “Ah Yuan, right now, I don’t have any relation with them at all, can you not be this narrow-minded alright?”
“I’m narrow-minded?” Li Hong Yuan’s voice suddenly raised a little, gloomily looking to Jing Wan, bitterly laughing, “Since Wan Wan already said it like this, then I might as well just have this title actualized.” He didn’t even bother with his clothes anymore, directly turning to leave.
Jing Wan subconsciously reached out to hug his waist, just wanting to slap her own mouth. However, she also finally learned that this one’s heart was narrow like the tip of a needle. In the future, still need to pay attention, and can’t mention. “I misspoken, I misspoken, how can you be narrow-minded. If it really were like that, you certainly would’ve long slaughtered them. Our Ah Yuan is the most magnanimous.”
“I’m not the least bit magnanimous. You’re right, I really am narrow-minded.”
Jing Wan wanted to cry, who can come back her up? Towards this man, she really was at her wit’s end. Never mind not coaxing him back, this was like the more she coaxed, the more fuel to the fire. What the hell.
Jing Wan raised her head, and he just lowered his head, looking directly at her. “Not going to say anymore? If you’re not going to say, then just let go.”
Jing Wan gritted her teeth and went all out, releasing her grip and rapidly embracing his neck, standing on her tiptoes, kissing him.
[1] Means getting jealous out of nowhere for no reason. This phrase originates from a contemporary short satirical play called ‘越打越肥’ (roughly translates to ‘Getting Fatter When Beaten’). It’s a modern phrase so ancient people won’t know it lol.
T/N: I feel like there’s some irony in where Jing Wan talks about killing him in the beginning of the chapter, but then ends up here with convincing him not to kill lol.
