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Beauty Gu (1)
Jing Wan somewhat rigidly lifted her head, seeing the familiar yet also unfamiliar face before her, recognizing in hindsight who the other party was, “Mama, I heard Ah Yuan calling me.” Her tears were still falling one after another.
Gong mama didn’t know what she dreamed of, to actually be this heartbroken. Seeing her like this made one extremely heartache, “Wangfei, don’t be sad, we will be able to see wangye very soon.”
A long while later, Jing Wan finally slowly came to her senses, wiping away the tears in the corner of her eyes, calmness returning on her face. However, even if taking the fetus protecting medicine, the effect wasn’t that quick, so at present, she was still somewhat uncomfortable. As such she still leaned against Gong mama, not budging an inch, occasionally stroking her stomach.
Slowly recalling the previous dream, she for a time suspected that perhaps it wasn’t purely just a dream. Regarding the matters of her husband’s past life, even though he didn’t tell her very clearly, many areas all vaguely brushing over, but right now, she seemingly can make some connections. That perhaps was precisely what ‘she’ experienced in his past life. Thinking of it like this perhaps was a bit absurd, but Jing Wan just felt that this was the truth.
That kind of tragic ending, in the dream, it was just watching a scrolling scene, yet she was all able to feel the deeply penetrating pain and sorrow, then what about for the one that experienced every little bit of it?
This wasn’t even the most important. Even if tragically dying, that was still having died. The ones truly in pain were the people left alive.
Her family probably didn’t know what happened, so perhaps a little better, but what about him? Jing Wan didn’t dare imagine exactly how he got through that period of time. If switch with her, perhaps she would’ve already thoroughly broken down, let alone start a dynasty’s golden era as the emperor.
The her at the time perhaps still didn’t understand his deep feelings, not knowing what he experienced after ‘her’ death, but based on her current standpoint, having the child entrusted to him at the time, and furthermore, asking him to take good care of the child, that was actually a very cruel thing. What was left behind can be a spiritual support, but might also be what is repeatedly uncovering the scars.
Her tears uncontrollably swirled in her eyes again.
“Wangfei……..” Gong mama worryingly called out. The Gong mama at this time, even if entirely dressed in nimble black clothes, was no longer that imposing bodyguard, but rather someone that has stayed by Jing Wan’s side for a long time, and even if strict and proper, the air on her was nevertheless warm. No matter how one looked, she all wasn’t like the ruthless type.
“I’m fine.” Jing Wan rubbed her eyes, having the tears forced back, “Mama, let’s go look for wangye, let’s go right now.”
Jing Wan couldn’t wait anymore, unable to continue suppressing the several days of longing, all thoroughly erupting at this moment. She wanted to see him. Every cell in her entire body was all clamoring, want to see him, want to see him, want to see him. Even just waiting for another minute or second, she all might breakdown.
“Alright, alright, we’ll go right away.” At this time right now, it naturally was just whatever Jing Wan says goes. No one could bear turning her down.
However, Jing Wan’s current condition, from the looks of it, it was just not having completely recovered. Under this kind of circumstance, to continue on the road, there still exist very large risks.
Needing to tend to her emotions, yet at the same time, can’t disregard her body, for a moment, they were somewhat in a dilemma.
When Gong mama lightly placed her hand on her stomach, Jing Wan finally realized in hindsight that right now, she needed to rest. She subconsciously clenched her fist. In the end, she had her intense longing and emotions pressed back down once more. This might be the only child between her and Ah Yuan. If lost, then in the future, they probably won’t have another one.
“Mama, do you have anything to calm the nerves that I can use? I’ll rest for another two hours.”
TN: All
For Jing Wan to be able to control her own emotions, it naturally couldn’t be better, “Yes, wangfei, please rest with ease. When it’s time, this servant will call you.”
Jing Wan nodded, closing her eyes, emptying her thoughts as much as possible. Just, this wasn’t a simple matter. However, as the saying goes, ‘as a mother, thus strong’. Moreover, when not having anyone to rely on, she will just be that firm and indomitable Luo Jing Wan that Li Hong Yuan was the most familiar with in his past life, possessing extraordinary perseverance. No matter how she appears to have changed on the outside, in her bones, she ultimately never changed.
Under the effect of the nerve-calming incense, Jing Wan sunk into deep sleep. This time, she didn’t dream again, seemingly appearing to be sleeping very well.
During this time, Gong mama closely kept an eye on Jing Wan’s situation from beginning to end. Fortunately, her condition has gradually stabilized. Gong mama’s hand rested on Jing Wan’s stomach, “Good child, already know to worry for your mother.” Seemingly, as if responding to her words, she felt the light movements underneath.
This time, Gong mama very distinctly smiled. Regardless whether it was a little shizi, or a little junzhu, from the looks of it, they will all be the most outstanding and most filial child.
Once two hours passed, Gong mama confirmed that Jing Wan had indeed more or less recovered already. Although it was still quite far from peak condition, but that wasn’t something that can be recovered in a short amount of time, instead requiring a quiet and stable environment, slowly nursing back. Right now, there clearly didn’t exist this kind of condition. It was still best to have the matter settled as quickly as possible, and then return to the capital.
And after Jing Wan woke up, she discovered that during this period of time, they actually got their hands on a sedan chair. Although still appearing simple and plain, it was still as meticulous as it can be, and spread on top was a thick and soft blanket. Regardless whether it was the level of warmth, or level of comfort, it all didn’t need to be worried about.
Gong mama didn’t let Jing Wan get up, directly having Jing Wan picked up and placed on top. After tucking the corners of the blanket, she soundlessly gave a hand signal. Four people came forward, having it lifted up. Afterwards, the scenery in the surrounding just began moving, even moving quite quickly. However, Jing Wan didn’t feel the slightest bump.
Gong mama was by her side, maintaining the same speed as her, not even once moving up and down. It can be seen, the four ‘lifting the sedan chair’, their steps were in unison, and Gong mama was also in coordination with them. Seeing this, Jing Wan’s heart instead relaxed a little. Having these people present just meant that her husband must’ve long made arrangements. Then, his own safety probably won’t have any problems either.
“Wangfei, the speed right now is a bit quick, so might feel a little dizzy. Why don’t you rest a little. Very soon, we will be able to see wangye.” Gong mama softly said.
“En.” She can sense that things perhaps really have already reached the most crucial step. Right now, thinking of more didn’t have any meaning whatsoever. How things should be will just be how it will be, taking step by step. To go contemplate when having yet to reach that point, aside from wasting mental energy, there seemingly wasn’t the slightest use. And right now, what she abstained from the most was probably just worried thoughts.
As for Sun Yi Lin, Jing Wan already didn’t want to think too much. Regardless whether or not there was a reason behind his actions, some things, once done, it cannot be undone. After all, long ago, Jing Wan had already thought things through. Even if her husband wants to kill him, she also won’t bat an eye, let alone now. That’s why, towards his ending, regardless of what, she was all able to accept, no, should be that it all doesn’t have anything to do with her. When time comes, the only thing she needed to do was perhaps just have what he has done kept a secret, so as to not let him drag down Sun Yi Jia. That was her sister-in-law, her close friend, and the mother of her niece and nephew.
Sun Yi Jia was completely ignorant of Sun Yi Lin’s matter. Her days right now were pretty good. She shouldn’t get dragged down by Sun Yi Lin.
Even if, under this feudalistic society, many things implemented the system of guilty by association, but Jing Wan in the end can at most just be considered half a locally born and raised Qi Yuan citizen. As long as she had her memories of her past life, then it was impossible for her to completely get assimilated by this society. In her past life, no matter how reprehensible of a crime, there still wasn’t the saying of treating the offender’s family as guilty by association.
However, if the matter is too serious, then Jing Wan probably won’t be able to be like in the past, having no barriers with her sister-in-law. After all, seeing her, she will inevitably think of Sun Yi Lin. Not treating as guilty by association didn’t mean that she won’t be angry. She wasn’t a saint. No matter how close she was with Sun Yi Jia, it still wasn’t as close as with her husband.
Sometimes, to be able to control her emotions from going out of control, not directly venting out on the innocent, it was already the limit.
That’s why, can only hope that things won’t be too awful.
Jing Wan inadvertently lifted her head, looking at the sky. The sky seemingly was about to light up. Looking at it like this, tonight had actually passed much quicker than she’d thought. ——-Ah Yuan…..
Li Hong Yuan’s current situation wasn’t that great. He got trapped in a dream, once again experiencing the darkest and most painful period——-did he and Jing Wan enter the same dream, or just coincidentally had the same dream at the same time?
Even if Li Hong Yuan temporarily had the love-locking gu suppressed, but some things, just drained the heart and mind the most to begin with. His breathing was chaotic, his internal organs all getting affected. One has to know, previously, for a very long period of time, his mental state was completely tense. No matter how sturdy of a body, under this kind of situation, all won’t be able to withstand. If it continues like this, perhaps it will even affect the lifespan.
However, right now, no one was able to approach him. Don’t look at how he was still sitting there with his eyes closed, not having the slightest movement, even his breathing all very weak, his attack power was nevertheless still very terrifying, just like having lost his rationality, indiscriminately attacking everyone. Whoever approaches will just die. Even if Gong Jiu wants to help him, he was all powerless to do so. That’s why, they all could only helplessly watch.
And that woman already got thrown far away by the people by Li Hong Yuan’s side. Even though, because of taking the substitute gu into consideration, their movements were still gentle, but ‘throwing’ was nevertheless a fact. For a woman to get treated like this, it was just as embarrassing as it gets.
Unfortunately, don’t look at how Li Hong Yuan ‘got controlled’ right now, not a single person by his side can be underestimated. Moreover, this was still within Qi Yuan’s borders. Even if in an unknown mountain forest in the middle of nowhere, it was still Li Hong Yuan’s territory. Even if the other side occupied the absolute advantage in numbers, this while, they still didn’t dare to easily do anything to this bunch of reapers.
That’s why, that woman ‘got injured’, embarrassed herself, and angered to the point of gnashing her teeth, yet in the end, still could only forcibly endure. Just, that determination to win, as well as hatred, in her eyes were nevertheless increasingly distinct.
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