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Able to See Him Very Soon
The horse carriage’s curtains once again moved. Jing Wan opened her eyes, seeing the Sun Yi Lin that reappeared. His face didn’t have that strange movement anymore, just the ‘scar’ right now, compared to before, increased by at least ten percent.
Sun Yi Lin however was very calm, like as if the previous sorry state seemingly never having appeared before.
If not for the current situation, Jing Wan would all praise him for his good composure.
“Perhaps presumptuous, but still want to ask, shouldn’t Gentleman Sun tell me a bit of something?”
Sun Yi Lin smiled, not having the gentle feeling like in the past, instead having a kind of strangely terrifying feeling. “There’s nothing to say.”
Jing Wan fixedly stared at him momentarily, and then closed her eyes. Her refusal to continue communicating was very obvious.
Sun Yi Lin was like as if he didn’t sense her intention, sitting down on his own, pouring a cup of water and taking a sip. That movement was just like as if sampling the most wonderful fine wine in the world, carrying a bit of infatuation. And during this entire process, his gaze was all on Jing Wan’s face. That’s why, what he was sampling wasn’t water, nor fine wine, but rather the beauty.
“Wan Wan, regardless of what kind of days you lived previously, regardless whether it’s sweet on the surface, but bitter on the inside, or sweet on the surface and sweet on the inside, I can promise, I will do everything I can to give you the best of everything, and I won’t have others by my side. Even the child in your stomach, I similarly can view as my own. That’s why, forget the past, alright?”
Sun Yi Lin one-sidedly began talking on his own, and even if not receiving Jing Wan’s response, he also wasn’t vexed, continuing to envision a wonderful future, from the beautiful picturesque scenery of Jiangnan, to the boundless snow plains of the northern borders, from the coastal region’s treasures of the sea, to the magnificent weather of the alpines. Everything was that wonderful.
However, without a good mood, no matter how wonderful of a thing, it was still equal to nothing. And no matter how much one looked forward to something, if the person accompanying by one’s side isn’t the one in one’s heart, then it would also become dark and dull, lacking in interest.
Jing Wan finally couldn’t stand listening anymore, opening her eyes, “Gentleman Sun, aren’t you being too full of yourself? Have you ever asked whether or not I’m willing?”
“It doesn’t matter. As long as you forget the past, in the future, there will just be me by your side, and will only see me. By that time, you certainly will be willing.” Sun Yi Lin’s voice seemed exceptionally gentle, even reaching out to lightly caress the side of Jing Wan’s temples.
Jing Wan’s pupils slightly shrunk, unable to feel any warmth, instead feeling like as if getting targeted by a viper, her hair standing on its end. Towards gu, that kind of thing, she knew nothing. That’s why, she simply didn’t know exactly how scary that thing was, not knowing whether or not a gu that can make one forget the past really exist. If it exists, then it absolutely was the one thing that Jing Wan didn’t want to see the most.
“Is Wan Wan scared? Don’t worry, it’s fine. You won’t feel any pain. It’s very relaxing, and also very simple.”
Jing Wan pursed her lips. Actually, right now, she didn’t understand exactly what caused the former number one gentleman of the capital to become like this now. Could it be that it really was just because of learning that her husband ruined the marriage arrangement between them? For him, was she really important to that degree? They’d only met a few times, not knowing anything about one another. And she believed that she also wasn’t someone that stood out that much from the mass, so how did it make him think of her this much? No matter how one looked at it, it was all like an enormous joke!
Jing Wan very much wanted to ask, do you really like me? Or is it just because of the indignation inside, in addition to someone else ruining, letting what was originally ordinary become special, letting the ordinary like become an obsession, and then, because of certain factors, cause the scales to tip towards corruption? Despite having such thoughts, Jing Wan nevertheless didn’t ask out loud.
“Where are you taking me?” Jing Wan asked. She originally thought that they were going to where her husband was, but now, she wasn’t sure.
TN: All
Sun Yi Lin smiled, “What, Wan Wan wants to directly elope with me? I also want to, but it won’t do. If some things aren’t settled, then even if we elope, we also won’t have peaceful days. Even though I don’t want to let you see anyone other than me, I’m also unwilling to let you forever be cooped up in one place. That’s why, the troubles that should be swept must be swept clean.”
Obtaining the answer she wanted, Jing Wan once again closed her eyes. Sun Yi Lin right now really was very ugly. Not his appearance, but rather that attitude, and that heart. If it continues like this, Jing Wan was worried that she would feel nauseous.
“Wan Wan is actually very happy inside, right? To still be able to see him again. Actually, I don’t understand. Li Hong Yuan, that kind of person, why was he able to obtain your favor? Clearly, you can’t tolerate men being fickle the most, yet him momentarily becoming devoted can just let you forget past deeds? He once endlessly changed people by his side, and in the future, most likely will also have someone else. Could it be that you think he will forever just wholeheartedly stay by your side alone? It’s impossible. But, I’m not the same. Even now, I still haven’t had any physical contact with any woman. Moreover, Wan Wan, don’t you feel you’re being unfair? Li Hong Yuan is riddled with past debts, but on me, there was just a bit of a problem, even having gotten schemed against, yet this marriage arrangement, to just break off like that…….”
“Sun Yi Lin.” Jing Wan couldn’t bear it anymore, opening her eyes, coldly looking to him, “How I am now, and how I will be in the future, all have nothing to do with you. Also, there’s one thing you best understand clearly, our engagement in the past, even if not having anyone interfering, do you really think there won’t be any problems? Even if you’d gotten schemed against, that is also because the openings on you are too obvious. Other people all don’t need to do anything and will just be able to make you be badly burned in the head. What, now that you’ve changed in temperament, even your mind has reduced to three years old? You being like this now is just like if I were to become ungrateful and fickle for the sake of clinging to power and wealth. Sun Yi Lin, let me tell you, I don’t owe you anything, so don’t blather nonstop by my ear. Do you know you being like this is really very annoying?”
In Sun Yi Lin’s eyes, a wound that even he himself didn’t detect flashed through, yet on the surface, he was still nonchalant, “Wan Wan sees me as such? That really makes one heartbroken. However, it doesn’t matter. I know that pregnant people are all somewhat temperamental, frequently unable to control one’s emotions. If you have anything you’re unhappy about, you can all vent out. I will always forgive you.”
When Jing Wan finished saying those words, she actually just somewhat regretted, fearing that a momentary slip of tongue would provoke Sun Yi Lin. When time comes, the one to suffer would still be her, especially the child in her stomach. Yet in the end? Hearing Sun Yi Lin’s words really made her nearly vomit. What the hell was all this? He probably was the one that was truly mentally deranged.
Jing Wan suppressed the anger inside, really deciding to not say another word.
Afterwards, Sun Yi Lin still softly spoke by Jing Wan’s ear, not following any logic either, saying whatever came to mind, not disdaining going thirsty, talking for an entire hour.
Jing Wan can also be considered to have thoroughly experienced for herself, and also learning for the first time that there were also times where reading too many books wasn’t good.
“Gentleman Sun, can I ask you to leave? This wangfei wants to change.” This kind of thing, under normal circumstances, was still quite embarrassing, but at present, Jing Wan didn’t feel anything in the slightest.
(T/N: Going to change is a less crude way of saying going to the bathroom.)
Sun Yi Lin still wished to continue, carrying a bit of regret as he prepared to get up and leave. However, when lifting the carriage curtains, he turned back, looking down from above, “Wan Wan, I don’t like your self-address. That’s why, I hope you pay attention next time. I can’t bear to hurt you, but even saints will get angry. I may not necessarily be able to suppress at all times. I won’t do anything to you, but it doesn’t mean that I will also be this lenient towards others.” His implications were very obvious.
“Sun Yi Lin, what you’re doing right now, what kind of position are you putting your younger sister in? If she were to know, how will she think?”
Sun Yi Lin’s expression didn’t change, completely calm and composed, “Wan Wan, this matter, how many people will know in the end? How she is in the Luo family previously, in the future, it will still be as such.”
“I thought that you would say, in the future when capturing the capital, even if asking for a noble title for her, it’ll also be doable.” Jing Wan mocked.
“My heart actually isn’t that big. Qi Yuan although is progressively declining, it still hasn’t reached this level of downfall.” It was obvious, this was Sun Yi Lin indirectly admitting that he’d already turned to the enemy country.
“Since that’s the case, then you should also know, the matter this time, you all may not necessarily succeed either. When time comes, what do you think will happen?”
“Isn’t there still you? The things you did for her weren’t few. I believe that you also won’t take your anger out on her because of me either.”
“Yes, I won’t, but she’s in the Luo family, and the ones she need to face everyday are also the people of the Luo family. When time comes, can a word from me really just change her situation?”
“An individual’s days still need to rely on oneself to live.” Sun Yi Lin climbed down from the horse carriage, his voice a bit fleeting.
Jing Wan clenched her fist in the dark, deeply inhaling a breath, enduring.
Hei Mei very quickly climbed onto the carriage to serve, her eyes filled with endless worries. Seeing Jing Wan’s clothes still tidy, her spirit still good, her expression neither good nor bad, Hei Mei finally relaxed a breath, “Wangfei……..”
“Don’t worry, I’m fine. Sun Yi Lin won’t do anything to me. You just need to properly protect yourself.”
Hei Mei tightly clenched her two fists, her eyes churning with anger, seemingly hating that she can’t have Sun Yi Lin chopped into pieces, “Wangfei, how did he, how did he just become like this?” While being angry, at the same time, Hei Mei clearly was also in disbelief, penetrating with a trace of lament. Sun Yi Lin’s former reputation, they’d also frequently heard about.
“Who knows.” Jing Wan’s voice was a bit blurry.
Shortly after, Hei Mei served Jing Wan in changing. Fu Rong also came to help but got coldly rejected by Hei Mei. If in the beginning, she was just suspicious, then now, how could she still not be aware. In Hei Mei’s eyes, Fu Rong was just an ungrateful white-eyed wolf. To be able to endure not hitting her was already the limit. To still dare to appear before her and wangfei, are you really looking to die?
“Fu Rong, Hei Mei is enough, you don’t need to come anymore.” Jing Wan calmly said.
Fu Rong’s eyes darkened, “Wangfei, don’t be scared. No matter when, all don’t be scared.” Afterwards, she curtsied, and then turned to leave, her steps still neither light nor heavy.
“What the hell, wangfei naturally won’t be scared, the despicable ones are you all, bastard things.” Hei Mei angrily said.
Jing Wan appeared to be thinking of something. Fu Rong seemingly was implying something, and not just coming to console her.
After this day, Sun Yi Lin just appeared from time to time, although he wasn’t as talkative as the first day, and Jing Wan for the most part was able to completely ignore him.
Afterwards, on a certain day, someone seemingly came, and the pace suddenly sped up. Jing Wan figured, afraid it was Sun Yi Lin slowing down the pace, thus causing the people behind him to be displeased.
With the pace picking up, compared to before, Jing Wan indeed was somewhat uncomfortable. However, it all wasn’t anything too serious, nothing more than just losing her appetite a little, her spirit lacking a little, and also her body faintly feeling a bit sore.
Hei Mei took it all in, feeling worried inside. And Sun Yi Lin’s worry was also expressed on the surface, even arguing with the other party. In the end, the pace ultimately slowed down a little.
As such, Hei Mei’s resentment towards him also reduced a little, thus when occasionally seeing Sun Yi Lin, she would appear a bit conflicted.
Jing Wan laughed, carrying a bit of weakness. Sure enough, Hei Mei was a straightforward girl, her emotions able to change this easily.
In this way, they traveled for another six to seven days.
The horse carriage once again stopped. Because the road previously was still considered flat, Jing Wan slept in the carriage. Feeling a bit sleepy, Jing Wan just thought that the stop this time was more or less the same as before, just resting midway. All the way until Sun Yi Lin once again ascended the carriage, “Wan Wan, we will be able to see our Jin Qinwang very soon. Say, if he were to know that on this trip, you have been eating and staying with me the whole time, and moreover, let me have you carried before him, what do you think he will do?”
Jing Wan completely woke up, feeling a bit excited inside, opening her eyes, “If really the case, then congratulations, you will be another step closer to hell.”
“Wan Wan saying this, is it believing that he won’t produce barriers towards you? Jin Qinwang’s heart is just that broad?”
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