He had just killed a human, the realization stuck in.
He didn't feel anything before, however, now that he was alone, he finally realized what he had done.
To be honest, he still didn't feel anything much however, as he glanced at the two bodies in front of him, his heart started beating quickly.
His movements paused.
Looking at those motionless bodies and the eerie silence that had enshrouded the whole area, Nux felt something strange.
He couldn't point out what it was, however, he knew something was different.
Nux then closed his eyes and started breathing calmly.
This was something Thyra had told him to do when she was suggesting different ways to get over his first kill.
The best way is to accept it.
However, it was not as easy as it sounded.
Sometimes, people won't even realize that they haven't accepted it yet.
The same was happening with Nux right now, he might feel nothing was happening, however, deep inside, something still bothered him.
For someone like him, the best way is to try and forget about everything for a time being.
And he can't use anyone's help for that, he had to do it on his own.
Nux then sat crosslegged and started meditating.
15 minutes later, he opened his eyes.
He didn't look at the bodies, he just continued digging and once the hole was big enough, he kicked the two bodies inside it and started refilling the hole.
Then, he returned.
Thyra noticed that he looked a little lost.
She understood.
Nux would be able to hold on if someone, or more specifically, one of his women is beside him, however, the same can't be said for when he is alone.
Once he is alone, he would start thinking about all of this and wouldn't be able to sleep at night.
This was a problem.
However, he was still doing a lot better than she thought.
"Alright, this would be enough for today,"
"Hmm?"
Nux frowned.
"That's it?"
"Well, the training isn't over, the real training starts after you have killed the person, your brain has registered it, however, your heart hasn't.
You have to stay alone for a while, introspect and then finally get used to this new, strange feeling.
Of course, this wasn't something that can be done in days, you need some more time.
However, I feel that you will be able to do it faster than normal.
You are different from others, after all."
Thyra smiled.
Nux nodded and the two of them returned to their tent.
There, Thyra and Nux slept in different tents, Nux didn't sleep, he just closed his eyes and thought about what had happened.
He still felt that he hasn't done something wrong, therefore, he didn't feel any guilt.
Then what was this strange feeling?
He didn't know.
And he didn't know if he could ever understand what it is.
The next day, Nux woke up, he and Thyra walked around the army camp, although he was a little gloomier than normal, he still looked fine.
Seeing that, Thyra smiled.
In the night, she went out with him again, this time, Nux killed another human and they returned.
This continued for the next 4 days, by now, Nux has killed 6 humans, however, his reaction to it wasn't as strong as before.
He had even started flirting with Thyra and Ember.
He still wasn't completely over it.
On the fifth night, Thyra and Nux were running towards a city and just as they were about to reach their destination,
Thyra muttered,
'We are going to increase the difficulty level now.'
'Hmm? How are we going to do that? Killing more humans?'
'No, we are going to increase the strength of the human we will kill.
You are already used to killing humans by now,
From now on, you will start assassinating strong humans using the techniques I taught you.'
Saying that, Thyra passed a paper to Nux.
'Clayton Brook,
In the Woods Dynasty, his status is similar to a Marquee, he is a Grand Master Stage Cultivator who uses his status to oppress commoners.
He is part of many frauds, he has raped many women, killed a lot of men and is an unforgivable person.
However, he always uses his status to dodge any punishments.
Today, we are going to get clean this trash from the world.'
Thyra explained.
'Thyra…' Suddenly, Nux frowned.
'What?'
'We are not warriors of Justice, Thyra. This is the Woods Dynasty problem, why do we have to take care of it?'
'We just want a target.'
'Why bother researching so much?'
'While I was trained as an assassin, there were three stages of Killing.
First, where I was made to kill a person who deserves to be killed. Since I deemed that the person should have been killed, it was easier for me to get over the fact that I killed him.
This is what I am doing for you by choosing targets that you feel should be killed.
The Second Stage is where you start killing people for your own advantage. As long as killing that person benefits you enough, you will kill.
They made me kill people while I was about to break through the next stage, under the pressure of fighting against those people, I grew faster than normal and I got stronger after killing them, which, in the end, would help me survive in this world later, I killed.
For you, this will happen when you participate in the war, killing the enemy soldiers will help your allies, and it will reduce the number of causalities among your soldiers, this will be your reason to kill.
For a King, as long as killing someone benefits him or his country, he should raise his sword.
The Last stage is where you kill indiscriminately. Right, wrong, innocent, criminal, it doesn't matter. You just kill since you were ordered.
I had killed so many people that I got numb, killing didn't bother me anymore. I turned into an emotionless killing machine that killed someone just because I was ordered to.
The background of that person didn't matter.
Even if he was the most innocent person that hasn't harmed a single soul, I would kill without a second thought."
Thyra's eyes then shined in determination as she grabbed Nux's hand with her two hands.
"However, I will not let you move to the last stage.
I will not allow you to turn into an emotionless killing machine.
You don't have to walk into that marsh, if you ever need an Emotionless Killing Machine,
I will be there to do that dirty work for you."
