"This is for Kazuo's sake."
"Right. For his sake."
Andou reached out her hand to hold mine. Her hand is a bit sweaty and slightly trembling.
When our fingers eventually crossed, red shade visibly appeared on her face.
"Don't tell me, is this your first time holding another guy's hand?"
"Don't ask!"
This girl. She's surprisingly pure. Just like that Harada.
"I guess I'm lucky to take this first time of you."
"What the hell? Don't phrase it like that. It's weird."
She settled back on her chair and closed her eyes. Seemingly trying to understand the feeling brought by holding hands.
My fingers tightened its grip on her and she thought that was okay and she did the same making both of our hands hurt.
"Okay, that's enough. It's cute and all but we need more practice like this next time."
"Y-you. Alright. As long as it's only at this level then it's fine."
Andou took back her hand and stood up. Since she's done with lunch and the plan, she's now ready to go back.
"Right. Let's have another practice tomorrow. Won't you agree?"
"You. You still want to take every chance you can get."
"I'm betting myself on this Andou, just to steal you. Tadano wouldn't do what I'm doing, right?"
"Have it your way. Holding hands, that's a piece of cake. Yes. That guy, he's too protective but he won't confess. It's not that, I will accept. It's just sad that he won't turn his affection to another girl."
Ah. Well, that's how that guy's character is. He will protect his childhood friend but he won't push himself to her. Even if that means he's conceding her to his rival. And worse, that's his best friend. What the hell is wrong with that Tadano? A born-cuck?
Andou went back first while I used my time to look for Satsuki. I told her to go to that place where I called Akane before, it's desolate and we can have our talk there.
I first went to buy a bottled water before making my way there.
Following my memory, I arrived at that place. The vending machine is still pending repairs. Satsuki is sitting on the bench inside that shade, clearly waiting for me.
When she saw me, her grumpy mood was apparent on her face.
"You finally showed up. Were you with a girl again?"
"Err. Yes, I can't deny that."
Satsuki clicked her tongue then she tapped on her side, telling me to sit there.
"I won't ask who that was. It wasn't right. And me being this grumpy wasn't right too. This is all your fault, Ruki."
"I can tell you if you ask though. You're mine now, Satsuki. If you have complaints then tell it to me. I just can't guarantee to satisfy all that."
"I knew you would say that. Forget it. I'm yours now. You accepted that I still love Sakuma and will even help me. I should start getting used to this."
"Ah. You're quite cute like this Satsuki. Just ask me if you want to know, okay? Here, take this. Drink it for now."
Her face reddened again when the word cute registered on her ears. She was about to shoot her mouth off again to retort but was stopped when I handed her the contraceptive and the bottled water.
She understood the purpose of it so she drank it unhesitatingly.
"I won't get pregnant now?"
"Well, yes. If we did it again and I shoot it inside you, you have to drink one again. That's why here, hide this well."
I handed her another set of it. Just like what I gave Kana before. She took it and put it in her purse.
"Pervert. You really plan to do it more."
"My Satsuki is so sexy that I can't always resist your charm."
"There's your sweet-talk again."
"I'm just honestly stating the truth."
Satsuki's hand sneakily went for my hand. She grabbed it and clasped it tight. Her aggressive side is taking initiative again. There's a risk for us to be seen by someone from our class here but I guess, I'll concede my hand to her.
"Tell me the thing you're hiding now."
"Right. That's why we're here. Like I said, after you hear it, I will once again ask you if you want to be mine."
I turned my face to stare at her and she did the same.
Yes, it should be said like this, without averting my eyes, I will tell her about my desire.
"You see, I have this desire I had since 5th grade. It manifested suddenly and it became my only drive since then. The emotion called love somehow became a foreign thing to me."
"That desire. Was that why you wanted to steal me? Ah. I see, so that's why you refuse to say you like me and you even let me keep my love for Sakuma. You had every chance to break that and have me tell you you're the one I love. But you didn't."
"Yes. To steal you. Well, not just you. In fact the scent of the girls you picked up on me were either from my target or those who I already conquered. Well there's just one special silly girl who's living with me now."
"Normally I would've screamed at you because of what you said. I even had that urge now. That desire of yours is unhealthy. You made me be yours then now I find out from you, there's not just only me."
"That's why I told you, you have a choice now. You can back away but I can't guarantee I won't go after you again or stay and be mine."
"Idiot. Do you think I can back away now? I told you, take responsibility. Don't give me this crap. I'm yours now. Even if there're others, I don't care. I even have Sakuma."
This girl. She said that but her hand was trembling. Her fingernails even started to dig deep in my hand.
"But I won't let Sakuma touch you. There's a difference. For me, for this desire. I'll keep on stealing someone."
"I don't care, idiot. I've already given myself to you. Don't look back at that. What's done is done. As long as you still look at me the way you look now, I don't mind if you continue. Those other girls you've stolen, they also accepted this, right?"
"Of course, you will always be my Satsuki. You're mine. And that will stay the same. Err yes, they accepted it."
"Then that's enough. Spoil me or tease me. Do anything you want. But I can't say I will get used to you having a different scent, I will always try to remove that from you. Ah. I was right. They accepted. Then I will too. Even if it's uncomfortable to think you have others."
Her grip tightened and the trembling continued but her eyes. That determination to accept it. It's almost the same eyes she had when she's speaking about her love for Sakuma.
Unconsciously, I pulled her to a kiss. It's just a normal kiss. I don't know. The urge suddenly came. Good thing the surroundings are devoid of people.
"Thank you for accepting, Satsuki. You're mine. All of you, I want you all equally."
"Idiot. Kissing me in public. Right. Don't continue telling me that. It's still uncomfortable for me. Now, Ruki. You said there's someone special. And you're currently living with her"
"Ah. That. She's really special. She's not from this desire. But no matter what happens, I will have her by my side. Whether she likes to or not."
"That sounds extreme. So did she like it or not?"
It really is an extreme possessiveness on my part. Ah. Now I miss that silly girl again. Is she eating well?
"It is extreme. Yes, that silly girl loves me. You're somewhat alike with your deep love. Do you want to meet her?"
"Deep love, eh? What? Why?"
"Uhm, so you'll understand why she's special."
"Err. No. Not yet. I still don't want to meet your other girls."
I see. I've just stolen her. It will take time for her to fully accept it. In fact, if not for her asking, I wouldn't tell her yet.
"Alright. You can ask me anything, okay. You're mine, Satsuki."
"I will if I want to know something. Let's go back then."
"Right. Ah. I still have somewhere to go to."
"Another girl?"
I nodded. Err, yeah. How many did I meet already? It's not even half a day. And now,Kana is probably waiting there. I haven't seen her since that time we put on a show for Otsuka-senpai.
"Then go. You still have my scent anyway. Looks like you stayed your hand too before coming here."
"Err. Well, it's more like I can't yet. Ah. See you in class, Satsuki"
"Ah. Someone you haven't stolen yet. See you, pervert."
Since we can't be seen together, I had her go first. Err, she initiated another kiss before she went though. That girl, not minding the risk. Well, it's exciting for the both of us anyway.
When I reach the stairs leading to the roof, it's still around 15 minutes before the end of lunch break. Kana is already there, sitting silently on the steps where we sat before.
"Kana."
Her eyes lit up when she heard my voice and smiled beautifully. She almost stood up but I stopped her, instead I went up and sat next to her.
She immediately snuggled herself into my arms while she reached for my hand and put it over her shoulders.
This girl. I guess she missed me this much.
