[Day 233]
After yesterday's "baby's breath" incident, I was left rather worried about the future of my daughter, although she's soon to be a month old, it is too much to ask for her to be responsible over her own powers, it is understandable if she cannot properly utilize them after all, asking her to be super capable would be too much of an overstatement of her true capabilities as a baby dragon.
I don't really want to force her to suddenly begin to get good at using her abilities, as the child she is, she could potentially grow some sort of trauma with her father if she sees me as too much of an intimidating figure. As I've always said, a parent that instills fear into their children is not doing a good job as a parental figure.
Parents are supposed to guide their children, not to intimidate them and force them to do things, I have to slowly help her so I don't want to be too strict, and because she's only a baby, that's even less of a thing I should do.
Maybe when she grows older, perhaps if she's a dragon, she might not really need many years to grow older, and perhaps in a few months she could become a bit older looking like I did when I evolved, but the thing is, because she's a baby, I cannot bring myself to act strict against her.
She's still learning and trying to enjoy her new life, and because she's a baby, she's very unexperienced. As she experiences things, she'll understand more of her powers over time, or that's my faint hope.
For now, I want to stay at her side and hug her, kiss her, and feed her while she slowly grows, because she is my daughter.
Ah… Even with all the difficulties of being a parent, I have to say that it is truly a beautiful thing to be a father. I always wake up with energies to do everything I can for my little girl and my wife.
I think that since I started this journey as a dragon that I was always lost on what to do, most of what I had on mind was surviving, and when I got strong enough, there wasn't anything else to do other than continue walking across the snowfields, eat, and evolve, I guess… It was a simple life, and I wouldn't really say it was a bad one.
But when I met Benladann, I would say that it is when my life truly started in this world, it is the turning point when I finally began to live more happily, with someone at my side to bring me company, it really brought to me a lot of joy.
And since then, things began to slowly build up, a lot of tragedies happened too, but there were also a lot of happy moments together with her, all for us to reach this point where we are with Benladra, our little girl.
And now, its going to be soon a months since she was born, only around nine more days, and I can't help but feel extremely happy to have her with me, even with the difficulties of raising a baby, I am getting pretty good and used to it…
I've never been a battle junkie myself, nor an innate warrior, even less a martial artist, I am just me, and I've been trying to chill in this new world ever since I appeared here, but because I was born weak despite being a dragon, I went through a lot of challenges early on… And it wasn't as if I was purposedly seeking them to begin with.
I guess if I had been a martial artist or a hardy guy that loved to fight above all else, having children would be a nuisance to my life, even more a lover, as I would only be stuck into growing stronger and fighting stronger enemies constantly, while that has never been my purpose. I do want to grow stronger, but that's more of a necessity to survive than because I want to feel the thrill of fighting some other idiot.
Perhaps if I was an actual fighter, it would be even "shameful" as I've seen in many fantasy and fictional stories of fighters and warriors that are shamed because they get children and have to take care of them, as if it were actually something bad to have a descendant or something.
I guess my life was never that type of genre… It was certainly annoying at times, and it still is, and it is certainly tiring too, but being a father is still something beautiful, and I can finally understand what's truly to be dedicated to your family.
Seeing my little girl sleeping over my torso really warms me up, especially because she's all covered in blankets while snoring cutely.
But the thing is…
I cannot really escape.
I am stuck.
Actually, today in the morning I have to go revive another of those stupid skeletons from the ancestors, but my girl is here.
I can't move or I'll wake her up.
And she looks so angelic while sleeping! I cannot really bring myself to do something so horrendous as waking her up, I am sorry.
But I really can't, I am not a monster after all!
Dragons are not monsters; we are a dignified race of scaled creatures.
Dragons are Dragons, you can't call us lizards either, that's offensive.
Therefore, because I am not a monster, I cannot bring myself to move away and wake her up.
Benladra is sleeping so cutely with her eyes closed and her beautiful silvery-white hair spread over my chest, it had grown quite a lot over a single month…
Her crystalline horns are cute too, as if they were two bright white diamonds, she's really a work of art if you think about it.
How can I wake her up?!
Ah… but what do I do now?
This is… a challenge greater than a Dungeon Boss.
