[Day 172]
This morning I woke up with many things on my mind, since the whole incident with Benladann, the fox girl, and Miranda, there was a lot to think about the inside of my mind, more than I could possibly and normally take with my head.
But now that I woke up, I had to calm down and see what I could do. First of all, the fox girl. Apparently, when we went to sleep with Benladann, our baby activated its baby magic of some kind, and it canceled out the amazing runes I had left on both of us so this fox girl wouldn't disturb us…
This ended in both of us being sent to this hellish inheritance place where a fox girl greeted our sight, an evil one that had tried to capture my Benladann and use her as some kind of item due to her rare soul.
And of course, I wasn't anyone to forgive those that dared to do such a thing to my loved ones, so I quickly confronted her and decided to stand against her, while protecting my lover.
We planned to move away despite her crying a lot about letting us forgive her as if she were a child. But despite how real it felt, I decided to think it was all crocodile's tears and not actual sadness, I confronted her and then decided to move away with Benladann, thinking of this fox girl as a lost cause which I shouldn't get with.
However, Miranda from all people emerged and compared herself to this fox girl, which ended making ups accept her due to Miranda's compassion and her ever-growing heart.
Honestly, putting it into retrospect, I am beginning to regret this decision, because we shouldn't have obeyed Miranda so much. We should have just told her that no was no and put her back into Benladann's soul after being reprimanded.
But I guess I am weak to Benladann, she ended persuading me with her enchanting beauty. And I gave up at the end by Miranda's cuteness and her blazing conviction which I couldn't help but recognize as beautiful. I ended deciding to accept the fox girl into your party, which ended with us petting her a lot for some reason.
After that, we decide dot move out and promised her to come back soon. But honestly, I don't know if we'll do. I don't know what to do with her other than completing the inheritance, it's not like I've made any bond with her, nor do I consider her a friend either. But maybe she could become a useful informant of important info I or we don't know about.
So what? I will get there and just ask her stuff while cuddling her or playing with her? Is that all she really wants out of us? It's a bit concerning, to be honest, she's really a mystery and I still feel a bit fearful of her behaviors and her mood swings.
More than anything, today in the morning Miranda decided to show up as we slept. I slowly woke up as I saw her suddenly emerge as a mass of black mold. Naturally, one would be scared of such a thing, but I knew it was her, so I let her emerge from Benladann as if she were some kind of Venom rip-off.
The mass of Mold suddenly moved independently, which surprised me, she had not done this before unless every Mold Benladann conjured was actually Miranda all along, which would be quite shocking.
After that, she slowly began to shape herself, and through some kind of Spell, she changed into her appearance, the same appearance Benladann had in her previous life, which had now become the appearance of the personification of her mold, and something of a twin sister of her that might also be considered like her second personality or second mind within her own mind.
Miranda's case is very strange, you would think she couldn't be so unique and independent, and despite sharing the same soul with Benladann, she is in fact a completely different being all together! Despite such things, despite such differences, personality, and more, she still comes from the same soul as Benladann, and could be considered Benladann herself too…
It is very strange, but I've concluded that it is better to see her as Benladann's sister than anything else. Anything more complicated and I might go a bit insane. But because she's also technically Benladann, it gets confusing, and I don't know what to think.
I've heard from Benladann that she shares emotions and feelings with her, and what if she shared them while we had sex all this time? While kissing, hugging, cuddling, and loving each other? Wouldn't she have experienced the same things? It is certainly strange to think about what another person experiencing the same things as Benladann would think about me, and honestly, it's not like I am creeped out or something, but I would really like to hear her opinion on the matter.
Is she okay with it? Is Miranda not creeped out by experiencing the same things as Benladann? Meaning, I've also been giving all my love to another girl within Benladann, completely…
I was mildly aware since she told me, but I had decided to simply ignore it and keep loving Benladann as I always do, while Miranda was only an afterthought for a long time, until she became more real to me last night with everything that happened.
I decided to ask her to come out for once. I ended deciding that I didn't want her to stay inside of Benladann, it was honestly weird. She had to get her own experiences and live, and now that she had the power to come out thanks to Benladann' developing her Mold Attribute Mana Core to Rank 4, it was more than possible for her to come out and greet us, and live with us, even if a little bit each day, until she gets used to the outside world.
And there she was, looking at me surprised.
"G-Good morning…" she said shyly while averting her gaze from me.
