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This is getting weirder as we go!
I had just happily killed the Divine Trials and fell asleep for some reason.
(Perhaps Attribute Particle overload?)
And then, I got into this place where I came to visit Chaos for the second time.
And now, a giant revelation is being thrown right into my face.
Can't you have some consideration over my mental health?!
I mean, I know that I am completely INSANE.
But even insane people have some sanity deep within, something that keeps em running, ya know?
And now one of those pillars, my past as a human, is being shattered into pieces, which are being ground into dust and then throw into the ocean!
Agh!
No way in hell I was not a human before!
How can I even trust a Primordial Entity that runs this entire Universe?
Do you think just because you created this entire universe I should just trust whatever the heck you talk to me?
And why was this event even triggered after I had a Divine Trial, what kind of bad writing is this?!
"…Bad writing? …And I called upon you because you met some of the requirements. Many clues say that you were never normal to begin with, my child. One of them is your ability to create threads of fate and your power over manipulating it…" said Chaos.
What?
What do you mean?
Well, now that you say it.
Yeah, I got the skill pretty easily.
By seeing how Genesis is so vast, you would assume more people would have gotten the basic thread of fate manipulation, right?
As it is as easy as getting a thread-producing skill and then stealing luck from someone.
I am sure Gods would be able to do it pretty easily.
Unless it was a Mortal only things like Divinity Devouring?
But even Gods can get Divinity Devouring by abusing loopholes.
So you would believe that they could also get the thread skill.
But I do not think anyone else has it other than the Supreme Goddess of Fate and Destiny, maybe?
But they do not!
I am the only wielder!
And I did not get it when I was a goddess now, I got it when I was a freaking butterfly!
Yeah… that was strange.
I do not think the System Gods were attracted to me from that time.
And I am also very sure that new powers can be created out of nowhere through a Skill, you have to have such power within your very soul.
…
This is indeed getting very weird…
But I feel that if she tells me more… I do not think I can… keep up with my own existence.
There is… this instinctual fear of knowing… it…
The truth…
That I am… not really me…
"I know how you might feel… But there is not much time… I had to tell you this… Your advancement into God Rank within the Laws of Genesis was enough for me to be able to reveal you this truth, my child…" said Chaos.
You sound so relaxed despite saying you were dying!
W-Wait, you are dying?!
What happens if you die?!
"The universe will end up being handled by The One and Azathoth only, but we are three for a reason, without a third Pillar, the universe won't be able to be completely sustained, and it will begin to reduce and shrink, which might also trigger the death of many worlds…" said Chaos.
What?!
Like… You mean…?
"In simple terms, it is as if the entire universe were to undergo an Apocalypse," said Chaos.
Oh…
Ugh… this is getting even more confusing!
But I kind of get it…
Haahh…
I want to run away and lock myself elsewhere…
"That is an instinctual feeling of how your life has been… I am… sorry. My child, but you must know the truth. The power of manipulating Fate that you inherently possess and that you unlock as you expand your family and become stronger is not something gifted by the Genesis System, it is something inherent of you. As a Child of Chaos, your power to oppose the Fate Law is strong. And as you keep growing, that power will keep getting bigger," said Chaos.
Wait!
So… my power to manipulate my fate and that of others are not gifted by my Epic?!
"Certainly, there is a small bonus from your Epic. But Epic Skills are made so you obey a certain Fate. The System Master dragged you into Genesis and chained your power through the Epic and his Blessing, giving you a new power that you evolved into yours to compensate and incentivize your growth…" said Chaos.
Eh? So the bastard is really a villain!
"I would not call him a villain. Everything in the world is gray, there is no good or evil. …My child, as you can see, since the very moment you began to develop that you were not normal, even by considering the gifted powers of Genesis' System Law," said Chaos.
That's…
Not true!
I was… I thought I have gifted those things!
You are telling me that I am actually way more amazing than I thought?!
I liked being a former fat ass Neet from Earth!
…Wait, maybe not.
"I understand how you feel… I do it very well… But… As the Primordial Entity of Chaos of this Universe… I swear to you, that what I am telling you, and whatever I shall tell you from now on, is all the truth," said Chaos.
Suddenly, I felt a strange power cover my own soul…
It had the form of a strange power…
Wait, is this a contract?
"I have created a contract of truth. I will not be able to lie to you ever again. Such contract is abode my own power, and cannot be destroyed," said Chaos.
No way…
It was all true then?!
But…
No…
I do not want to believe this crap!
I was a former human!
Why do I have to go through this horrible stuff?
Are you going to tell me now that I was some Randoms spider inside the Neet's room?!
And that when I died I got reincarnated with a part of his soul?!
Wrong Novel!
"…No. You were not such a thing… But I can see that it is greatly hurting your emotional health. Nonetheless, you have to bear with this, because the truth is what will forge your path ahead… You have to listen to me, my child… I only have good intentions for you," said Chaos.
Good intentions my ass!
What do you mean by good intentions?!
This is maddening!
What person would not go insane by being told they were not actually the person they believed to be?
I am already insane so maybe that is why I am just freaking out and not screaming.
But even I have a limit of how much of this crap can I take.
And I am near my limit…
…
But okay.
Fuck it.
Tell me.
Tell me everything, Chaos.
"…Thank you for trusting me, my child." Said Chaos.
Suddenly, my vision changed.
My whole perspective turned upside down.
And then I began to see things… strange things.
As if they were something of a movie.
No…
All of this is familiar.
It is… incredibly irritating.
But all of this is… familiar to me…
Why?
Ugh…
What I see is an eternal chaotic vortex.
I am inside of it.
Strangely enough, I even see the galaxies, stars, and planets around me.
I am being embraced by this vortex of darkness.
What is this even?
Then I realize who I am.
I am in a strange space within Chaos itself.
And I am… a sphere of darkness.
With a single crimson eye.
This is… me.
Chaos, like a mother, nurtures me with its eternal darkness.
Are you kidding me now?
For a long time, I spent with her, she embraced me and… loved me.
I then begin to remember my past as a 'human'.
Every memory changes…
All these words of my parents that made me love them…
These memories and experiences of happiness…
They all change…
And are replaced by what was the truth of this fabricated memory.
"Always remember that I love you…" said my human mother one day, as I was resting while reading a book.
But such a memory changed.
It was now a palace made of darkness and crimson lights, and Chaos replaced this mother.
I was a small sphere of darkness.
I had man eyes now, and even tentacles.
Oof.
I guess that is why I am so comfortable having them, I was always like this…
There are many other creatures at my side.
One of them I kind of recognize.
It resembles my demon forms.
Especially the… Chaotic Abyssal Demon…
It seemed to be a servant and something of a butler that played with me at times.
Everything is so bizarre yet so… warm.
This bizarre image replaces my memories of my parents, as they all are replaced by the truth.
It was all a fabrication?
But…
No…
These emotions of familiarity.
This tender love.
This warmth.
Even as a strange life form, this love still existed, it was the truth…
My mother is really Chaos…
She took care of me for so long.
Millions of years.
I was born to her, and she took care of me…
She made these creatures to become my friends and protect me…
Those times I played cards with my father and mother, it was her and my servants…
Those times my mother washed me were Chaos grooming and cleaning the dark impurities within my body.
Every time I was having lunch with my parents it was Chaos and the other Demons with me, as we ate what seemed to be… Stars?
Oh wow…
It is all so alien…
Yet so close and familiar…
I…
I…
I do not know what to say…
I feel such a strange feeling of familiarity as if I were actually at home.
But how?
How did this end?
And how did I came to be this?
And how did I came to be in Genesis?
What happened?
And then I see it.
As if answering my own questions, I see it.
Bright auras emerge from the firmaments of far away, penetrating the spatial layers and invading our home…
I see it.
The enormous auras of overwhelming power.
So overwhelming that I cannot even move as I see them…
They begin to extend chains.
And grab mother with it.
She, a Primordial Deity that maintains an entire Universe is made into a mere chained beast…
Such bitterness.
Such frustration.
My heart was filled with hate, with scorn.
With sorrow and also with regret.
Mother…
At that time I was still innocent and stupid.
I tried to save mother, I tried to attack them and force them to let them go of the only thing I loved so much…
But it was only a swipe of their hands for me to end up sealed.
I can hear their voices clearly…
"This Chaos-type Primordial Deity has a spawn?"
"Interesting. Perhaps we could enslave it and tame it, maybe it can grow into a fine summon."
Summon?
I am… just a beast to tame for them?!
As I struggle to escape, I feel as my energy is drained away…
I was dying whenever I tried to escape…
These beings who see all creation as nothing, but materials or items laughed at my struggle.
But mother could not take this anymore.
"NO! DON'T YOU… DARE! NOT MY CHILD!"
My mother roared in agony and anger, as she somehow managed to break the chains.
Using her enormous power, she threw a gigantic vortex towards me, breaking my chains.
That moment, I thought that there was a chance…
But that was the beginning of my journey…
I was thrown into a strange wormhole, as I saw my mother for the last time…
"No matter how many things you go through… never forget how much I love you…" she said, as my vision was clouded, and I disappeared within the eternal cosmos.
Through an amount of time that seemed eternal, I traveled through the cosmos, the spatial layers, galaxies, worlds, and more.
That vision I saw when I died on Earth and saw a sea of many worlds, was actually this scene…
The splendor of seeing the entire cosmos go through my eyes.
As I fell through the cosmos, my body slowly began to fragment.
These fragments formed immense waves of darkness that I saw travel through the universe endlessly, showering many worlds…
I wonder if these waves of miasma are still traveling through the cosmos…
I began to grow weaker and weaker…
Until at last, I stopped falling.
So much time had gone by that I had fallen asleep.
And at that time was when I was suddenly grabbed by something…
I recognized this bastard.
This guy who gave me a new opportunity to change my fate…
The System Master.
"Oh, there. I finally caught you… You've grown weak…" he said.
He suddenly wrapped me with his Divinity and inflicted several restrictions to my own power, while also giving me his 'Blessing'.
Then…
He inserted the memories of this man from Earth and decided to make me restart anew in Genesis.
Why did he even do this?
I think I have a little clue.
This bastard wants me to change Genesis with my powers, to bring what he desires.
After all, he did not save me out of goodwill…
And there and on, I was reincarnated as a Caterpillar by accident because my soul ended wandering out of my desired body, which was supposedly a human.
And because my soul ended so weak due to the restrictions and my own fragmenting, only the small egg of an insect could take my soul…
That… was it.
That was the whole ordeal.
Now…
I know it all.
I know the truth.
And because I became a Goddess in Genesis is that I was able to be capable of taking into this info without the System Master Blessing suppressing me…
It all made sense now…
Yet this sorrow…
I open my eyes as I am back at the side of Chaos.
She was really… my mother.
After so many eons, I had the chance to meet her once more…
Now I am so different from back then… yet… she recognizes me…
And she still loves me…
Even after so long…
"I am so glad… that you were able to see the truth… my child…" she said, her words were trembling, even as Primordial Deity, she seemed so weak now…
Mother…
I am back…
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