But it was not possible for a newborn baby to be plump and pretty, and Gu MingYue understood this clearly. However, she could not control her emotions and she felt like crying, to vent out all of the negative emotions that she had been keeping within her heart once and for all.
Thus, the sobbing lady rubbed her head against the man sitting on the edge of the bed, expressing her irritability, her grievances, and her sufferings with nothing else but tears.
She did not know how to raise or care for a new life, but she knew that Song ZhenYi would definitely help her with it. He was reliable and trustworthy, and Gu MingYue trusted him wholeheartedly, however, at the same time, part of her denied the yearning and dependence she had for men.
Hers was the path of loneliness and solitary, and she will soon leave this world for many new different planes. In the end, Song ZhenYi would merely be the most beautiful and dreamy passerby in her life. She could not possibly stop her missions because of a decision made arbitrarily. Furthermore, not only were they separated by the torrent of time, but also the distance in space.
Even if the two of them acknowledged each other and got together, the end would always arrive far too quickly, and they will be left with the pain of separation, filled with undying love and affection that will never fade in time.
Gu MingYue was reluctant to place such a burden on Song ZhenYi.
He was not an important figure in the original story, not even a cannon fodder, just a normal man who accidentally found a place deep within her heart.
He was a healing light, a warm current, one that always seemed to be able to wash away all the darkness and filth on her body and soul, before wrapping her up warmly with a bright and soft light. He could easily melt all the ice and snow within the depths of her soul.
The rims of Song ZhenYi’s eyes reddened as he watched her weep with her soul. He leaned slightly towards her and landed a tender kiss on her bright forehead, finally mustering up the courage to tell her the words that had been going through his mind for a long time, “Xiao Yue, please let me take care of you.” He held her hand gently but persistently, intertwining his fingers with hers.
“Please…” His voice was hoarse as he begged, and Gu MingYue’s heart throbbed with lingering sweet pain.
How could he behave so humbly but so slyly at the same time, confessing to me when I’m in such a vulnerable state… Gu MingYue felt weak and helpless after giving birth, and there was no way she could harden her heart to reject him at such a moment, especially when she recognized her own feelings for him.
“I know I’m eleven years older than you, and that might seem like a huge number to anyone. But, there are also benefits of having an older husband! For example, I will take care of you and love you as a husband and a fatherly figure, and I will never let you suffer in the slightest for the rest of this life.” Song ZhenYi persuaded her enthusiastically, as if sensing the dawn of victory, “I will be a wonderful husband and father, and everything I had will belong to you and the child…”
Gu MingYue’s imaged the beautiful and quiet life in the future that he had constructed from his description. She knew him to be a man of his word, and he would definitely do as he promised.
Furthermore, Gu MingYue clearly believed that he could definitely do better than what he promised.
She shut her eyes tightly together, realizing finally that the longing in her heart was overwhelming her supposedly calm reasoning.
What’s the big deal? At most, she would stay and accompany him through this life, and after they had plenty of children and grandchildren, she would send him off on his final journey, then go back to setting foot in time and space, alone.
She would cherish the happy memories with him in the countless lonely days and nights in the future.
In fact, Song ZhenYi must’ve been sent specially by the Gods to make up for her regrets in her original world. The timing and place of their meetings were too coincidental and mysterious.
Like most women, Gu MingYue shared the same wish to find a one-hearted man whom she could grow old with. Unfortunately, in her own world, this was a ridiculous and naive wish that could only be buried and hidden deep within her heart.
Furthermore, though her mission was to make the mission target fall in love with her and her only, in all the worlds that she had conquered, she had never been allowed to experience the happiness and sweetness of the follow-up development1. But even if she was able to, she would not be the person who was loved, as she was but a soul from another world, inhabiting another person’s skin and name.
That was where things differ, in this place and time, where Song ZhenYi existed, although she was still using someone else’s skin, she was her true self – Gu MingYue. These three characters not only represent her name, but also her soul, which had been separated from her true body and traveled through spans of time and space.
Only in front of this man, she was Gu MingYue, and not Shen Yue.
Gu MingYue did not answer nor speak with words, instead, she moved to the side of the bed to make room for another person, before patting the bed with her hand and motioning Song ZhenYi to lie down with her. After that, she proceeded to untie her hospital robe to feed the wrinkly little bun within her arms.
This was the first time Song ZhenYi saw her jaded white twin bunnies, which were somewhat swollen due to the pregnancy, and his face instantly went as red as beetroot.
“You have to get used to this, father of the child.” She chuckled softly.
I actually teared up a little when I was translating this part ?
Another update to make up for Sunday’s post!! Brain getting fried for speed-translating omgee~
